Friends????

I have been feeling lousy for over a week now: not physically so much as emotionally.  I have really needed a friend to step-up to the plate and just contact me, email, phone, whatever.  Yet, it feels as if I am the last thought on any one's mind. 

I have emailed all my friends, and even my friend in 'Vegas I had called about a month or so ago.  She told me as soon as Spring Break was over with her kids, she would call me and we would get together.  She has told me so many times I am her best friend, but I just don't see it.  I know she talks to others throughout the week, yet she never seems to find time for me.  When I have challenged this friendship, she always tells me I am her best friend, and she doesn't want me to think otherwise.  So, after this last month of waiting for her to call me to get together, have come to the conclusion, I am last on her list of people she wants to talk to or be with.

I would chalk it up to my not feeling good with all this crap going on with me physically, but I know that is not so.  When we do go out, I don't sit and bitch and complain: we actually laugh a lot.  I always have a good time, and feel better for the time I spend with her, but I guess she doesn't, thus she does not make time for us to get together.

I have needed some communication from my bro this past couple of weeks, but he has been too busy with his kid.  I understand him wanting to spend as much quality time with him as he can, as his ex-wife keeps him away from the kids as much as possible.  I just wish he had time to drop me a line.  Maybe he is tired of my woes as well.

So, this last couple of weeks not only have I had new things going on with me as far as physical pains, but I have also felt lost and really alone.

Oh, poor pitiful me!